Wednesday, January 18, 2017

I Don't Love Babies

A lot of girls see babies and are like, "Oh!!!! Baby!! Have to hold, have to kiss, have to squish!" It's as if they can't control themselves from going crazy over any baby - because it's just too cute.


I've never been like this.

Babies are just babies to me. 

And I've never felt the urge that I just had to have a baby.

Baby-crazy girl: "Don't you just want a kid?"

Me: "No... I think I'd prefer to get married, first."

For a while I thought I may have been weird as most girls love little kids. But my sisters are just like me in this.

Then I  thought the reason may have been partly because I have ten younger siblings and I'm just accustomed to babies and kids. I see and hold and kiss babies all the time. So, maybe another baby wasn't new to me. - Even though I was always excited for another baby sibling.

But then I saw other girls, part of large families also, that were obsessed with strange babies. And I was confused again.

It's not that I hate babies.

But I don't love every single one either.

In fact I think most look like ugly rats.

But I love certain kids. 

This little sister of mine is my buddy ;b
I like my siblings. 

I like my cousins.

3 active, fun little boys ;) 
 I like the kids I babysit. 

Mary's baby, Annalise. I get to see pictures of her almost every day!!! I get to got stay with them for three weeks this January. :)

Rashida's chunky baby, Ezzie. Just look at her smile! :D 
I like the kids of my friends. 

And there are a few other kids from families I know that I love.

But most kids are brats (demons). And their size or looks don't affect much in my mind.

You see, I like people for who they are. Regardless of age or size or looks.

 I don't have to cuddle every baby I see.

I don't want to be friends with every pretty girl.

I don't have to kiss every cute guy.

In fact, I definitely don't want to kiss every good looking guy.

That's just weird.

Imagine. Seriously!?

That's gross!

I like babies for what they mean to me. through the connection of their parents, or their nice attitude. 

Beyond that? I don't consider myself a baby lover.

Yes, I'm a people lover.

But I don't need to hug and kiss everybody, babies included.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

I'm A Stubborn, Opinionated Dogmatic

I love to argue/debate.

But I don't like to make enemies. For me it's about stretching my mind, or maybe helping the world see things better. It's rarely about me trying to be right – actually, that's not true. I do like to be right.

Lol. Who doesn’t?

But I like to have fun, too. I like peace. I don't want to make the other person mad (permanently).

And for that reason I refrain from resorting to insults, and I laugh off the ones directed towards me. Or try to ;) 

Trashy words of insignificance do no good. They only take the focus off the point. And when I'm arguing I like to stay on topic, not get personal.

But a while back an insult directed towards me actually made me think.

“You're just dogmatic.”

We were talking proofs for God's existence. And that was the name I was called. Dogmatic. What all bad, hard willed, unrelenting Christians are called. I almost laughed it off, and continued on to my next point, but instead I asked the person to explain what they meant.

“Dogma is what you religious people consider to be absolute truth, when you have no “real” proof. Being dogmatic is when you stubbornly refuse to believe anything but what you have chosen as God's truth.”

“Wow.” I replied. “I must be dogmatic then.” I think I surprised my opponent here. “Because I do believe the Bible is the ultimate truth, and I will continue to believe so even if man has alternative “proofs”. There's nothing wrong with me using it as my sole source, either. But what about you? Are you not being dogmatic by refusing to even consider that which you call dogma?”

Later I did so more research of the words - I even did a girls class on the subject. Simply put, the word dogma could be described as religious opinion and being dogmatic, you could say you are religiously and stubbornly opinionated.

Liking to argue I will not deny the fact that I am both opinionated and stubborn about what I believe are absolute truths. Yes, I like to continue to learn and expand on my knowledge, but I will always believe that any knowledge I take in, anything I learn, it is only more data to help me better see the Glory of God and to help me follow Him perfectly.

There are so many labels and words now days that are so taken out of proportion. Tolerance. Legalism. Gay. Jesus-Freaks. Patriot. Nerd. Goody-Two-Shoes. And so on. 

We have all these names we call each other. We have all these "terms" we use to describe things.

But if we would just examine what we are saying or being called. 

If a few people would just start using a dictionary.

If we would just stop being mad at what people call us and take the time to understand what they really mean, what the words really mean, and how it really applies to us it might help a lot in our interaction with others.

It also might help a lot in how we perceive the Bible, God, and the world around us.

And even ourselves.

Because before that argument I would have never considered myself dogmatic.

Take some time to look up words that you think you understand… maybe you really don't. And try using a few different real dictionaries (physical books, not online definitions). You'll be surprised at how much you can learn, and how your concepts of life may change.

dogmatic (google definition)
1. inclined to lay down principles as incontrovertibly true.
"he gives his opinion without trying to be dogmatic"
synonyms: opinionated, peremptory, assertive, insistent, emphatic, adamant, doctrinaire, authoritarian, imperious, dictatorial, uncompromising, unyielding, inflexible, rigid
"your being so dogmatic does not attract me to your religious philosophy"

And, yes, I will confess, I'm very stubborn about the fact that my opinion about God's existence is ultimately the only truth. But is that wrong? If I truly believe that He is real, the highest power, should I not be adamant?

I'd love to hear your thoughts on this!!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

2017 Happiness

Who'd know… it's 2017!

Life moves a long so fast, one year to the next. These last few years have been so full, of very good times (and very hard times). Yet, even though so much has happened, the time that has passed has been nothing.

My family: December 2016. 

Just looking back over it all.

Trying to figure out how I got to where I am today.

Considering all of it.

It's truly amazing – it's awe-striking.

Life is just too good to not love. Even the difficult times I would never change – for they are very much a part of making everything what it is in my life.

2016 was an amazing year.

I spent several months volunteering for Above Rubies.

I watched several of my friends marry – Esther, Meadow, and Shelby.

I was there for most of Rashida's pregnancy, and got to meet little Ezzie.

I had my horse accident – which was not fun, but it happened, lol.

I learned more about confidence and friendships. So much more.

Lost friends, made friends, strengthened relationships.

My beliefs in God were tested and made more firm in many ways.

I was baptized.

I got my driver's license.

I wrote a novel in a month.

The list could go on forever. There are so many things that made 2016 special, so many reasons I'm glad to be a live.

It was a fantastic year. Full of laughter (some tears) and joy.

It has been a very good push-me-forward year.

I am so excited for 2017. To see what God still has for me. The adventures, struggles, excitement – even the dull moments.
I know all of it will be good for me, even if I don't necessarily like it.

Because as of yet I have found everything in life seems to be only designed by God to give us a better end. And for that reason you can't hate any of it.

As for resolutions, like normal I am resolved to still not make any.

I'm the type of person that continually overwhelms myself with trying to do more and such. And I'm big for (trying to) complete everything.

So, in a way, I find new year's resolutions silly: I already am trying to perfect myself daily with things I can control, and a lot of what people put on their list is only destined for failure and causes a lot of feelings of self-hate.

My advice to all of you wanting a perfect year: rely on God. Don't worry about any thing. Live each day full of Him… He'll give you the strength you need for doing all that is truly necessary. And He'll open doors for you, and close doors, and just guide you down the very definition of fulfillment if you but rely on Him instead of the strength of you own self.

And don't get rid of things – but find a better purpose. For example, around this time of the year a lot of people deactivate their facebooks.

But usually for only a small bit, to get back on and use it just as they did before – a time waster.

Instead of doing that use it properly. Spread less drama, and encourage people.

Don't focus on cutting evil out, but establishing good habits in your life, habits that will slowly but surely push out all that junk.

And, those are my new year thoughts.

Also, that contest I was doing… it doesn't seem to be taking any flight in any of the two times I tried to do it… so it is now discontinued.

Once again, Happy New Year!!!

Let me know your thoughts of 2016/ 2017… what does this change of seasons mean to you? Or does it mean anything ;) And here is a fun piece of satire that expresses my thoughts well :D

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

The Book Sacrifice Tag (LETS BURN SOME BOOKS!)

Every now and then some tags just make you super excited. Like this one that Alexa nominated me in.

Only thing: Why is it a book sacrifice? Because all the books I'm about to mention, doing this thing to them would be no sacrifice to me. AT. ALL.

It would be my pleasure to take such a hand in their demise.

*evil and satisfied laughter* 

I present to you the:

An Over-Hyped Book
Situation: You are in a bookstore when the zombies attack. Over the loudspeaker, you hear the military informing you that over-hyped books are the zombies’ only weakness. What over-hyped book will you chuck at the zombies?

Christian romances better labeled "garbage for the mind."

LOL. First off, just about any book in a book store is over-hyped - all the good ones take a lot more work to find. Ya' know, the things worthwhile (doing or reading) in life aren't acquired easily. It all takes time and effort...

But I'd probably choose a Janette Oke book. Or maybe something by Beverly Lewis.


Those books - "Christian" romances. Full of fluff . You seriously can learn NOTHING from them.

Like a Zombie, they are brainless.

A Sequel
Situation: You are caught in a torrential downpour and you’re probably the type who melts when you get wet. What sequel are you willing to use as an umbrella to protect yourself?

I do hate getting wet, but I wouldn't cry. What's the purpose of getting even more soaked!? 

First book that came to mind was Catching Fire, as it didn't measure up to Hunger Games.

But then I thought about this romance series I actually read. 

And I half liked it... (It was Scottish, and supposedly like George MacDonald... so don't judge me too much...)

Until I read book 2.

I can't believe I even read book 3!! :0 

(Again, it was Scottish, so how could it not have caught my eye?)

Don't worry, I threw them all away. 

But if I still had them, I would definitely use them for protection against the elements.

It was a cute enough story. But the lesson they taught was garbage. It was almost blasphemous in my mind. And the romance just became sick ;p I would say more, but once I start ranting about how much I hated these books I can't stop talking. 

A Classic
Situation: You’re in English class and your professor won’t stop going on about a classic that “revolutionized literature.” Personally, you think that classic is garbage and you decide to express your opposing opinion by hurling the book at his head. What classic is that?

I'd hope I'd be a little more civilized than that, but knowing me, I would probably at least throw some harsh words at him if he went on too much about ANY of Jack London's books.

You see, most people have no idea what kind of guy Jack London truly was.

He was a crazy man, turned bitter by war. And it shows through in his violent works of fiction.

Don't people notice his themes? All man-kind is evil. Only nature has true answers. Nature, in essence, is the only pure goodness, animals included. God is never the way. Nor is mercy, or kindness, or any of that.

Revenge and bitterness are huge in his works. And he is very graphic and barbaric, too.


I don't see how people can say his books are family friendly at all.

A Least Favorite Book
Situation: You’re hanging out at a bookstore (where else would you be?) when global warming somehow manages to turn the whole world into a frozen wasteland. Naturally, your only hope of survival is to burn a book. Which book would you not regret tossing onto the fire?

Never read this book. 


I actually DID burn it.

It was horrible.

L. M. Alcott was one of the greatest woman authors of all times. She wrote some really good books, besides Little Women, - one of my favorites of hers, "An Old-Fashioned Girl." 

But some lady thought she could take L.M. Alcott and turn her into this modern day woman with out any values of righteousness, void of morals.

Louisa Alcott would have been abhorred had she read this book. I would have been abhorred had such a book been wrote about me.

It was shameful, disgusting, awful, horrendous, evil.

It was the epitome of all that is bad.

And, so, for the good name of L. M. Alcott I burned this book.

Also, this book is part of the reason I write reviews of all the books I read. I want all people to know what books are really worth reading.

And what books should be burned and never touched.


And one of the reasons I really enjoyed this tag was because of the hype put out there about not bringing authors and books down, as if just because you are a writer or a book has words in it, it is now on a separate pedestal of perfection.



Just because time is put into a thing, doesn't mean that work is NOT garbage.

Just because someone puts their life into something doesn't mean we should appreciate it. Some lives are not worth knowing. Sorry, but not sorry.

There are books out there that NEED to be bashed.

There are authors out there that need a whole new life-revaluation. They are people like any one else, and sadly, like most of us, are missing out on some important concepts.

The scary thing? Their ideas are being put into minds all over the world. And we are praising them because - why?

Suddenly fiction has more power than anything else.

And we are allowing evil to rule through it.

Fiction is never just fiction.

It holds ideals, beliefs.

It influences thousands, millions of people.

And it's not something we should just respect. We need to understand it, fear it, and use this tool rightly.

And remember, it's okay to hate the works of the devil, and understand that a lot of authors are being mislead.

Yes, we need to be kind to all people (authors included), but when something is wrong, nothing terminates are duty to stand up and say, "This is evil, stupid, or trashy."

So, what are your thoughts on fiction? What do you think about the books I chose? Lol. Also, I tag Erudessa, Bethany and Becca, and anyone else who thinks this looks like a fun thing to do!!!

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

My NaNoWriMO Experience

Hello, all!!

I believe in this post I promised to tell you all more how NaNo went for me.

First of all it went. (Like literally, November is over, guys).

Second of all I, uh, won. I guess that's what they call it when you complete NaNo, though I don't understand why. What did I win? Lol... the feeling of accomplishment??? 

I don't really call completing a challenge winning. Contests are for (one) winners and (lots of) losers. Challenges are for the many who achieve to do the impossible: stretch their mind for the mere sake of stretching.

It's the time to hold yourself accountable to yourself. The thing about challenges is when you fail there are no real consequences, but when you succeed the victory is sweeter than any reward!

Rant finished: I am a NaNo completer!!!!!

Now for my story of how it actually went.

The last couple weeks of October I spent doing a lot of thinking... "talking" to my characters, fleshing out stories, and doing brief chapter outlines.

I did one page for every chapter, and did 22 chapters, as that would divide up to 2,273 words each from the whole 50k.

(I did end up adding another chapter, so there were 23 :b)

I also made myself a schedule to keep everything prioritized

And then I made myself a graph to keep my word count straight.

On, top of that I did three pages of descriptions of all my characters and wrote out a brief summary of the mystery that is woven through the book.

These were all the preparations I did.

And then came November. This story has been on my mind and heart so long that I had little trouble getting involved with the writing.

The week before I "practiced" my schedule by doing it, just working on another piece of fiction I had to write.

So getting up that early wasn't so hard.

And for the most part everything went REALLY good. It was an awesome experience.

There was one time when my screen froze - went black. And I was sooo scared I had lost my novel! This was around day 20, so it would have been horrid to have lost so many words... and having done that much work and not be able to finish!

Thankfully, my laptop started working.

But I got smart and emailed my story to myself after that ;b

The last 3-5 days were hard, too.

I was really tired from other things. And my book was just going so slow, it felt. And I was just ready for NaNo to be over.

But I trudged through those last couple days and completed both NaNo, and my novel with 51,026 words :)

As to my novel itself?

(besides the ending)

I love it so much! It is a retelling of the original Egyptian Cinderella story/ Biblical Esther story mixed with tons of my imagination. I set it between Abraham's and Joseph's time (Early Bible days). It has a mystery surrounding the fur slipper. And it totally bashes all the ideas in modern Cinderella stories such as love at first sight and the meaning of true love. 

And I love all my characters.

And I even wrote my Biblical namesake in there!!!

So, yeah, it is really neat.

But it needs a lot of rewriting. And I'm giving the book a two month break or so till February. So, it probably won't be ready for all you beta readers till mid-late spring. :)

So, did you do NaNo? Have you done it before or want to do it in the future? And who wants to be put on my list for future beta readers of The Fur Slipper!?

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Embroidery: Roses and Beautiful Pain

I am really excited to share about a project I just finished.

Also, keep in mind that I do custom orders.

About five years ago I saw the most gorgeous scarf in our local co-op. It was 100% Rayon, covered with beautiful embroidery.

But the price was far above what I was willing to pay.

So, I went to Joann's and bought some nice looking off white rayon.

I bought enough to make two scarfs. One for me, and one for my mom.

I hemmed them both up, and unraveled the ends creating the tassel.

And then I forgot about them ;D

Until this last August. After being home awhile, and finally rested from traveling so much, I decided to take up my hand work again. I went through my sewing, knitting, and embroidery things, organizing all my projects.

And found the unfinished scarves.

And, so, I started embroidering the one for my mom. It took several months of constant work. I just finished it mid-November.

Oh, and I used 100% rayon satin floss... so this whole scarf is 100% rayon.

Except, I think my mom may end up using it as a table runner ;b

See all the pretty roses? So many colors!

Got to love old books ;)

When it was still a work in progress, but almost finished! Those last days were exciting!

I thought this old chair went well ;)

And the greenery just added a nice touch. I believe all works of art should use different forms of red, blue, and yellow to be complete for the eye ;D

This is the wrong side ;)

Top: wrong side.
Bottom: right side.

My mom wearing her table runner... I mean scarf ;)

Adding a Jewish look... Or trying ;)

It can be worn around the neck, too ;)

Laid out ;) Don't you love the fringe?

And 'cause I am goofy, and wanted a fun picture ;b I did after all go through a lot of work for this!

I'm not sure how many times I stabbed my fingers... drawing blood a couple times.

You'd think that after awhile, once you have embroidered a while, you would learn where to direct the needle.

Or maybe it's just me.

Or maybe all beauty must involve a little pain in order to turn out perfect ;D

Anyways, I'm excited to do my scarf now!!!

(Mine will be a dragon and daisy-type flowers!)

What do you think? Was it worth all the work - and pain?  What do you think of the colors, and over all design? If you were to make one, what would be your design and color choice? And would you use this as a scarf or table runner or what?

And, I was serious about doing custom orders. But it would be a little pricey as there's a lot of time put into hand work.

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Creative Limitations: Winners and News!!!!!!

Lauren is back with the names of the winners from the contest I posted a couple months ago. Sorry about it taking so long to get this to you! Make sure to keep reading, to the end, because I'm about to announce a new contest and challenge of sorts, one that I hope you all will love!!

Hello! Lauren is back again! If you didn’t already know a couple of weeks back I did a guest blog post about a six word contest here. Since I’m back that can only mean one thing right?

The results of the contest are in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I know this is the very first contest done on this blog and the very first contest I’ve ever held. So as a result we got some amazing entries that were very hard to choose from.

All two of them :-) :-)

And both of them were absolutely amazing! They were both so creative and they really got my mind thinking about what bigger stories could go around them.

And so I couldn’t pick one. As a result you are both the winners!!!

As promised here is your prize.

Congratulations to you both!!!!!!

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not the kind of person that says “Everyone’s a winner!”. I think that declaring a winner is a good idea and I will do so in the future.

Alexa at Summer Snowflakes

Hope Ann at Writing In the Light

Keturah back ;b

Aren't those memes just lovely??? Lauren did a great job with them, so, applause for her and, also don't forget to congratulate our winners ;D

Ok... so, this idea literally came to me as I started formatting this post.

"I need a new challenge. But what?"

Lauren wasn't able to keep this going, at this time. 

And I didn't want to start just another 6-word story.

I  like originality. 

Excitement, fun, all that jazz. Unique, ya know?

So, what to do?

Then I came up with this brilliant idea.

I'll post an image.

You come up with a caption or "short story". The only rule is keep it under 20 words.

And then I'll choose a winner, and make a meme, with your words on that image, and post the meme with your words in the next challenge.

And if this goes well, I'll try to do one every month! 

We'll give this a try, and then see how it goes.

Oh, and yes, a deadline. End of January ;b That gives you a month to come up with something :D

And so, here is that image... let's get creative with these limitations!!!!

Yes, I was too lazy to find a decent picture, so I just used one of my fashion pictures. I sort of like this one, anyways ;b

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Perceiving that Illusions are Not Truths (Perspectives)

"It's all in the perspective." Is another way of saying "Truth is relative."

"There is no objective truth."

"Facts are up to the beholder."

"I see what I see, you see what you see." (I might take this one with physical things, as for the most part we both would see the same thing, just with our own attitudes backing up the vision.)

"Can't be helped. In fact, we just need to learn to accept the fact that our minds are ruled by illusions."

"Nothing is real. Nothing is true. Let's just loooove each other and live in happy unity, you doing your thing, I mine." (some contradictions there, don't ya think?)


Hold up a second. 

You are going to use illusions as fact!?

(Apparently some people on facebook try to)

Um... I don't care what you think you see here, it's obvious that this illusion is just an illusion. No matter how hard you argue that it looks like this guys head is off, it's not. At least not physically. If the guy is as wacky as some, I may concede the point that his head isn't on tightly. But that's all.

Uh... stupid. It's either a nine or a six. Just because you are upside down, doesn't mean the rest of the world is, too. Now, as this is an illusion, it can be argued what that number is here. But, in real life, it's an either/or.

First let me emphasis that this is an illusion. Illusions are not real. They are figments of the imagination. Things distorted to make your eyes go crazy and your mind, "What!"

Illusions are not fact.

Because in real life, the men could have just rolled the logs apart and counted the correct amount.

In real life, if there had been an illusion, it wouldn't have lasted long, because truth would have settled the matter, and one man would have been right, one wrong.

Simple as that: Illusions can never support facts, nor prove points. 

Except here, where I am using them to prove the point that they can't prove points. ;D

Now. I actually kind of like this illusion... I'll explain more with my own drawings...

Hopefully you can read these ;D

Sometimes we have to see past our own perspective in order to see the whole picture. It's not enough to say, "That's just my way of seeing it, so there, accept me for who I am."

As you can see, some paths appear to lead to the same place. But in reality, they end up going quite opposite directions.

And in the political illusion, I'd like to add, that first off there aren't only two paths to choose from. And that, yes, at times they may seem to just end in the same place for all of us. But who cares?

It's better to do right than risk the chance of dealing with the consequences a wrong choice will most surely bring.

Not saying good choices will promise easy lives. But that's not the point of this post.

The point is that there are two separate ways.

And I don't care how many illusions you try to show me, my mind won't be fazed by the fact that truth doesn't lie. 

But there is such a thing as perspective, that has nothing to do with illusions.

You know the kind that has to do with attitudes.

"The glass is half empty!"

"No, you idiot, it's half full."

And then one could say this goes to prove that truth isn't absolute. Is the glass half full or half empty? Which comes first, the chicken or egg?

Real life illusions, ready to stare you down and make you lose faith.

But... um... it's all in the perspective. ;D

It doesn't matter what you think about that cup, either way it has water in it.

The facts: It is a glass and it has water in it.

Saying both people are right is not admitting truth is negotiable. It's just saying, these people have different attitudes about the same thing. 

One person choosing to be gloomy, and another joyful doesn't alter the facts.

It doesn't make the water vanish. The glass become a bowl. 

And it doesn't mean that one of those two are no longer human. 

It just means that they are choosing to show different faces ;D

Smile. The big, blue world needs your joy.

So, facts, you see, can not be changed. Attitudes can affect your perspective, but the truth of the matter is that nothing outside of that truly changes.

So, why not believe in truth, and be that one happy person who knows that the path they are taking is the right one? Sure, you may face hardships along with the rest of mankind... but you have the right attitude. 

And you can know, despite the circumstances of life, that the place you are destined for is much better than what others perceive as the end goal.