The Social Porcupine

Was 2019 a good year?  It had its awful moments.  Was it a spectacular year?  It definitely had some amazing memories.  And yet, I find myself looking back over this last year, asking myself, how well did I live 2019?  Was it perfect, or a waste of my life? Or something in between?  There were many times where I thought I'd for sure lose several different friends. There were several times where I just about decided to move out on my own. There were times where I had decided that. There were times I loved America, and times I wanted to go to some other country. There were times that I loved Germany, and times that I missed America so much.  I saw old friends. I made new friends.  There were times where I thought I knew my future.  And then something happened to change it and I thought, "Oh, no. That is my future." And then something else happened to change it altogether so that I was back to a blank p...

I'll admit it, I'm the stereotypical bossy older sister. And having ten younger siblings has only made me great at it. "Jerushah. Bring me some water." "What's the magic word?" "Now," I reply with snark. "No, that's not." Nevertheless, she laughs. As do I. After that I use this " smart" reply a lot. Now it's kinda old, but it's still one of my favorite words (among acceptable, stupid idiots, and beyond ) despite how mean some people may think it is. Source But this post isn't about that sort of now.  You know how people have a word for the year? Well, I've never done that before, but now that this year is nearly over I realize I sort of have had a word for this year. That word has been NOW. And I don't mean as a substitute for the word please. I mean in every day life, how I live. In previous years I've always had something to work forward . Things in the past were alwa...