The Social Porcupine

DISCLAIMER: Not my image You dare me to do it; I say nope. 🤨  You say that’s how it’s done; I show you how it’s REALLY done. 😅  No options? I can come up with twenty plans hundreds of times more ingenious. 🧐  I refuse to do or believe anything "just because".  Dead or alive, I like doing my thing. 🤩  Or maybe I’m just super anti-social and don’t care what the party wants? 🙁  Rebel or rude or right?  I like thinking before doing, and then doing, too 😉 Just not the same sort of doing as you would do 😆  Tradition or fashion; I don’t care. Why should I? There’s no growth in being the same. There’s no fun in never knowing why others are the same.  It’s not about why I don’t care; I’m asking why you don’t care about what I care about?  It’s a matter of opinion until it comes to this ... and in this, I say all that matters is my opinion.  My way or the highway ... I’ve chosen BOT H....

My mind is so full right now. My life is so busy. I feel overwhelmed by nothing in particular and everything at once. Yet I can't stop from doing . From not sleeping. Exhaustion is my addiction. To rest is not an option. Or so it seems. And I keep looking for more… more ? More of what? Why do I crave chaos ? Why do I laugh in my stress? Why can't I cry, even though my eyes are heavy? Life and all it's mysteries . Right now they make too much sense, yet are even more distant than ever before. I keep feeling like I am not doing enough. I need to make every breath count . But is just breathing enough? Must I constantly gasp for air? Is it okay to just live every now and then? My life is crazy. Yet I love it. My mind yearns to stretch out more. Every muscle in me, physical and mental, demand to hurt every second. And then I see color . Life stops - no pauses - for a second. ...