The Social Porcupine

When I was happy the most hurtful thing someone told me was, “I want to like you, Keturah. But you’re always behind a facade of laughter and I can’t ever get to really know you.” When I was falling apart, the most hurtful thing someone told me was, “Keturah, stop dwelling on it. Just get over it.” Both times these things were said to me by people that I respected and loved as close friends. I didn’t think my laughter was a facade … humor is always how I’ve dealt with life. But because of that, I was unable to laugh for a long time. When I was consumed with grief, I was trying desperately not to drown. I wanted to get over it. But being told that, when I desperately needed a friend to let me talk and rant, did not help me get over it . Instead, I pulled deeper into my grief and had no release. (I want to take a moment to acknowledge the fact that I have a few VERY good friends that laugh at my weirdness and talk with me during my tears. They never condemn me for either, but...

This is the surprise I mentioned last week . Now, please don't be sad and say, "This is ridiculous." Laughing is good to do, especially around April Fool's Day, yes? Picture taken by my sister, Jerushah. Picture taken by my sister, Jerushah.  If you remember, awhile back I posted a flash fiction on my blog called  Crazy as Poison Ivy . This story was inspired by true life events ;) Meaning ... it actually happened, I just wrote that story as fiction.  La'el is my friend, Rashida La'el. And she actually thinks this is funny. She is the only one getting a free essential oil ... sorry, these things actually cost me a bit to make, despite being a completely ridiculous joke.  Please, don't feel like you have to buy one to laugh, though. The pictures can be enjoyed in and of themselves ( I hope ).  But if you would like to support a crazy artist, definitely buy yourself a fake essential oil!  These bottles are sealed and fille...

Last year I was tired of the me I was . So I set resolutions. Just like every other year. I was going to be better. I was going to love more. I was going to be different... no more old, nasty me. Beautiful. Perfect. Caring.  Kind. I was going to chase all my wildest dreams. No fear was allowed to hold me back. I was going to travel to new places.  I was going to experience new, exciting things.  Lose all that weight. Eat completely healthy. Read my Bible five times a day. Pray every second. Be a friend to everyone. Find true love. Give to twenty missions. It was also the year I was going to take the most selfies, posted with false quotes to inspire millions!!!! #Selfielover I was going to become the me I've always wanted to be. And, so what happened??? I succeeded!!!!  Guys, I'm now perfect!!!!!!!!!! I can now be proud of the me I am . I accomplished all my New Year Resolutions for 2017....

This world is too happy. Look at the smiles everywhere! It's disgusting. Wide mouthed laughter? Squinting eyes? I mean, come on. Why!? People being nice to each other for no reason. It's not right. It's not realistic. It's disaster waiting to happen. And that is why I intend to bring it down…. show you all exactly how to be depressed in just a few short easy steps. Because, if we want to get rational, there is no point being happy for a time when we know that everything ends in death. That's right. Death. Dark, lonely, depressing death. Wipe that smile off your face… hey, even kill the imaginary one in your soul. Because it is time to bleed and cry. To feel terrible, worthless, pessimistic. 1. Just eat it. I don't care if it's full of sugar. Or chemicals. Or whatever they call garbage this day. If it tastes good, eat it. Perfect first ingredient to creating lethargy in your life. And lethargy means certain depression. ...

Laughter. There's something about it. You either hate it or love it. It can be distracting, addicting, or even contagious – all in good ways. Attractive, beautiful, meaningful. But hopefully it's never repulsive, obnoxious, and disturbing ;b Haha... I mean some would think so… But… really, what sort of minds do they have!? Lol. Some people will love you for your laugh. And then there will be those that hate you for it. That can sometimes be discouraging, and even make one want to quit laughing. But should you? Is laughing something that should be controlled, or is it something to be encouraged? Even in ourselves? I must say I have a very STRONG opinion on this… but first I'll share some verses. A joyful heart makes a cheerful face (smiling is the first step to laughing ;b) , But when the heart is sad, the spirit is broken. ~ Proverbs 15:13 According to Proverbs 31, the virtuous woman laughs without fear of the future. Now that might sound a lit...